>The Darkness That is Me

                              Once More Domincans Bag It Triple

               It all started with the poster making contest and now the students of IV-St. Dominic continues to shine as the undefeated champions in the senior level…

        What a news!!! well, as much as i want to continue the particular article above i decided to write what was appropriate…my feelings and experiences during the hectic last-week of October…

       I was selected to be Ms. Spain for the UN contest together with Jet and though (according to people) we were the best presentors and the teachers’ bet we lost. (my pic as ms. Spain) To think there were five positions available and we got the sixth. i didn’t let it bother me though. After all, the next day was the Battle of the Bands.

       After the UN me and my bandmates had to practice. (The entire week, i had to go home late) And we experienced a couple if not many difficulties.

      Ah, finally the battle…  (a picture of me after our performance)Unknowingly, we won with an average score of 92% as the 2nd runner-up. My boyz won 1st runner-up (RhyBozhomes). the champ and the voter’s choice was KitChinOmix…

       So that’s 2 trophies 4 dominic (one from Gem N Ice and one frm RhybozHomes). Tired and not-in-the-mood, i rested in our classroom. then, i found out there was a practice for the folkdance which will be held the next day.

before proceeding we grabbed a bite. Did i mention i had no cash? well, i was able to eat thanks to my sponsers (joke! my friends) Shinden and Bowithe… (my pic eating)..then on to the practice…

(see my pic? I’m tired) We all ended up going home at 9pm others (like me) 10pm…my parents were really understanding about it.

       but it was worth it…why? we won! Champoionz in the FolkDance compEtitiOn with an averaGe of 94%…and Best CostuMe! so that’s 4 but there were 3 entries (2 in the BoB and 1 in the folkdance) so we bagged it triple! (here’s randall, the prince of our singkil performance)

for more info on the folkdance please visit the st.dominic page (dominicles) and for the BoB just look for nikki in my friend’s list..they have a vid of us…thnx!!!

-sam

Tomorrow’s the last day of exams. It’s also the last day to pass our project in TLE which is the production of icing. It’s all the day of the eliminations for the battle of the bands…talk about a lot of work…but we can handle it…right?

       one thing i’m worried about though is my bandmate and adopted daughter, Irish Primavera. According to many she’s not exactly the type of person you can get along with but of course i’m not an ordinary kind of person. i can take whatever she can give. however, many can’t. not that they’re going to actually fight her but they just don’t want her around. i set the rule, band first then get the hell out. translation: we’ll play as a band but after the performance we’ll go our own ways…   

      I can just imagine the scenario tomorrow. us walking into to the audi. not one of us will mention anything about what had happened. then go to the stage together but go down separately. oh well. this too shall pass.

-sam

Dear Reader,

       I just experienced a bad day…well, not exactly bad. it’s more of an irritating, frustrating, aggravating, nerve-racking, fist-clenching day. you get what i mean, i suppose.

       i have been the victim of some very (insert adjectives above) rumours. Worse part is it’s not true…then again, what rumour is?(i guess all rumours are lies or atleast half a lie). imagine going to class like it was just an ordinary day and about mid-way of the day someone blurts out, "is it true that (insert rumour)?". then you’ll be like, "what?! no. Who told you that?". And the script goes on. Well, if i must.

       As i was about to sit down to eat my snack my classmate and bandmate, Noelle (she’s an awesome drummer), came up to me and said, "Uy, sam, totoo ba na kayo na ni John Patrick?". [cut]

        FYI: John Patrick is one of my previous suitors (not to mention the longest one. he like courted me for about four years or so). He is also one of my closest classmate and friend…(can i call him friend if he doesn’t treat me like one?). Naturally, we’re still close even though he’s not ‘the one’. Then again, maybe it was too close, hence the spreading of the rumours…moving on.

       [proceed] I was like, "what?! no way. sino nagsabi sa’yo nun?". Noelle simply replied, "3 tao na lumapit sa’kin at sinabi na umamin na daw kayo na kayo na." You can imagine my frustration (and indigestion) at the news. I begged Noelle to tell me who they were but it really didn’t matter because i found out anyway. needless to say that that rumour ruined what seemed to be a (finally) stressful day. i ended up avoiding a friend…or two…(that’s right. the rumour wasn’t the only thing that made me upset today).

       on my way home, as it turned out, my cousins were waiting for me. now, after what i’ve been through that day the last thing i needed was someone beside me. not that i didn’t want them around, it’s just that i wanted to be alone and to be able to compose myself through silence (and blogging). worst part is, kuya sensed there was something wrong and though that i was mad at him. the last thing i ever wanted was to get into another ‘tampuhan marathon’ with kuya after our previous one. i really wouldn’t be able to take it. so i hugged him (in public) and wanted to tell him everything. but being the conscious guy he is, he pried my arms off. that hurt me. the one person i was hoping to comfot me couldn’t do it.

       to make a long story short, i sent him home early, which hurt him more becaues today was probably the last day he could escort me since we’ll be both busy for the next few weeks. but i didn’t care anymore. i wanted him to know that it’s ok to leave me…again.

       So…a rumour made my day bad, which made me feel worse which made me act worse which hurt my cousin the most. it’s annoying, this cycle of negativity. it’s simply passed on, never ceasing until the day is done. then tomoroow (hopefully not) it begins once again…(sigh)

Yours Truly,

Sam

Dear reader,

   there will come a time in everyone’s life when they have to let go of something important under some pretense or other. and yet, there is a certain predicament that is for me the most painful one to ever occur.

   there is that certain intersection in life’s complicated paths where in you will find/realize the exsistence of someone. this someone may be related to you or not, you may have met before or not or just some angel from heaven. whatever…the point is that this will be the someone that ill have the most impact in your life. this will be the person who you will truly love above all (except God, of course), yes even your family. this is the only person you will ever trust, you will ever need, you will ever believe.

    and then there will come a time when you ‘will hurt this same prson, one way or another. and you will do it again…and again…and again. finally, you won’t be able to stand the knowledge that you’re hurting the ony person in the world who you will ever be close to. this will tear you apart. you want to let go but the knowledge that you will wake up in the morning and he/she won’t be there anymore is not something you can bear. but in the end you will come to the conclusion that you hae to go your separate ays, even if you need to break the ties yourself.

    You start to erase anything that will remind you of them (from text messages to e-mail adds). everythng they’ve given you suddenly gets lost then you finally throw away the others (not admitting to your own carelessness).finally, you sit down in front of your computer, plug into the net, find your blog and write a most painful entry that you will erase in a month or so…the last of your momentos of that person…

    dear reader, please bear in mind that what begins must also come to an end.

    farewell to all. I’m sick of hurting others without meaning to. My brother will take over from here on…

                                     -sam, anna, ai, aya, saya, queen of darkness, marie

damn it…whenever the post is a meaningful one it never gets published. the computer suddenly experiences a technical difficulty or the post doesn’t get saved. im so pissed right now…fear has turned to anger…(sigh)