>The Darkness That is Me

Actually I sincerely believe that more that 7% will forward this..

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small, desert- like island. The two survivors, not knowing what else to do, agree that they had no other recourse but to pray to God. However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.

The first thing the first man prayed for was food. The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land, and he was able to eat its fruit. The other man’s parcel of land remained barren.
After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife. The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land. On the other side of the island, there was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food. The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him. However, the second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that his wife and he could leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island. The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island. He considered the other man unworthy to receive God’s blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered.

As the ship was about to leave, the first man heard a voice from Heaven booming,
"Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"
   
"My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them," the first man answered.
"His prayers were all unanswered, and so he does not deserve anything." 

"You are mistaken!" the voice rebuked him. "He had only one prayer, which I answered. If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings."

For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us.

When Jesus died on the cross he was thinking of you!

93% of people won’t forward this.

ei..to those who want a story..any story…i can write them for you..just give me some of the details you want to include…hehehe..have nothing to do here right now… -sam

Here in the Philippines we celebrate Christmas Eve through Noche Buena, a fiesta for the whole family including relatives and neighbors. A grand get together whether you’re rich or not…

I completed the Novena mass…Wohoo!!! 4th year in a row…now we’re celebratin Noche Buena..hehe..Merry Christmas to one and all..to the pinoys, have a garnd noche buena… -sam

hayz..it’s the 8th day of misa de galo…feeling really tired right now..

  How’s everyone? well, i miss my friends, think i’ll give them a holler today…

  Kuya Kevin missed today’s massed (awww) too bad.. just two more days and we have completed the novena.. Well, it seems i’ll be able to complete my streak..hehe. It was said you can make a wish after you’ve completed the novena..not sure what to wish for yet (liar!)…

  Like to say hello to the people who kept reading my blog but don’t post an

ything..hehe..make yourself known! but i respect those who like to keep their identities hidden..MERRY CHRISTMAS to all..

-sam

PS: I think my cousins are coming home today from Macau..

   Yehey! Today’s the seventh day of Misa de Galo or Simbang Gabi..i think i’m going to complete the novena for the fourth time in a row..hehe

   Yesterday, we had our Christmas Party..total boredom and unsatisfaction of you asked me.. well, until we got t the games and the awardings.. by the way the winners of the following:

Early bird: Angela Glinofria

Latest Bird: Judd Sandico

Artist of the Year: Karl Daquis

Gentleman of the House: Judd Sandico

Lady of the House: Charles Comson (no offense)

Hottest Babe: Nikka Bahinting

Campus Heart Throb: Ace Andaya…

   So far that was it..there are mor winners coming up.. actually we had to cut it short because of the Shakey’s Food…hayz..we were one of the classrooms who stayed late because of that! all the others were going home and we still haven’t eaten. Can you believe it? Next year I’d prefer padlock or groupings than ordering out..damnit..(sorry for the curse) we payed Php 169.00 for that??!! What kind of…. was that? oh well..it was fine aside from the food..MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL…

writing…there’s something about writing that makes me feel as though i’ve been freed from a very dull prison. It doesn’t matter what i write, whether it be a poem, story or even a song… I love writing. I love reading what i write. I love keeping all of it to myself and sharing it to others who are interested. I’m writing right now. I can’t think of a time when I stopped painting scenes and stories through my words. Imagine, drawing, sketching a masterpiece through words, touching people in ways others will never be able to expalain…sigh…

-sam

wla lng…just wanted to say that me and my band mates have registered to the school’s battle of the bands..hays…today’s the second day of exams and I’m just so tired..hehe..i didn’t even get to study much…

bye for now..simbang gabi pa kmi ni Kuya Kevs..God comes first db?

-sam

there are times when i wish that i would just vanish.. I just can’t help but wonder why?

Q:Why are we here?

that’s easy, because we have a purpose

Q: Why do we have a purpose?

so that we wouldn’t feel empty

Q:why do we need not to feel empty? Why is life important?

because we can make a difference..each and everyone of us..

Q: and how does that help?why do we need to make a difference?

so that we can make the world a better place unlike those who destroy it..

Q:those who destroy, is it not their job to destroy?Weren’t they supposed to destroy things and the world?if they stop doing evil things, does that mean we stop making a difference?

we exist for the sake of existing

Q; aren’t we suppose to exist because of God or the divine creator?

yes..

Q: why did he create us? was he so alone then? i though he had the word with him?

he created us because he loved us

Q: isn’t it because we were entertaining? aren’t we entertaining him?

no..he loves us..

Q: then why does he let these things happen?

to teach us..

Q: why does he need to teach us?

so that we would learn how to be strong..

Q:and if we become strong, what next? if we become what He wants us to be does that means our purpose is over?

no..for we will never be able to achieve that perfection

Q: then why bother trying?

because we exist..

Q: so we exist so that we could chase an unreachable goal?

yes

Q: why? why do we even exist if our purpose is like that?

balance

Q:what is balance?

balance of both good and evil

Q: why must there be a balance?

because without it all is lost

Q: what’s wrong with everything being lost? whats wrong with dying? Why don’t people want to die? what are they so afraid of? If they only knew that we exist for such a petty purpose..

that thought is kinda one-sided…who are you to say that other people’s prupose is petty just because you don’t understand yours?

Q: what are we here for? Did not God expected Judas to betray him? Judas’s betrayal was crucial for our salvation. Therefore, is not Lucifer like Judas? Did not God intend him to play the role of the evil one so that we all could come back to Him? In short, aren’t we just pawns of God? even though he gives us free will He always seems to find the darkest, deepest doors inside us so that we would be able to follow His design and not ours? What then is existing?

  such a fool you are that you cannot comprehend the simplest things…think! If you did not exist, if you were in heaven among everything He created, not feeling pain, happiness, love..the essence of life..what will you be? Just a shadow, another drifting thought in the wind. Worthless. But if you lived, whether good or bad, you could feel whether that feeling had been placed in you or not. Such an imbecile to think that God is entertaining himself by creating you, watching you mess up, fall then rise. Such incompetence, little puppet.Tell me little puppet, would you rather be at the backstage, knowing everything, not feeling anything and all alone or be at the stage along with the other puppets with Him pulling all your strings. You feel hurt and pain but you’re there.

your mind is just a drop of water in the ocean compared to the knowledge of those who cannot be named..for they have seen everything, know the purpose of everything, understands why He had done all this..and yet they are nothing for what is everything but nothing..

Q: your words are not of those of humans..are you?

no..in death you will see a glimpseof the truth..

I’m wishing i was dead then…

-sam

…something or someone has always been beside me, embracing me when i sleep, holding my hand when i walked. He would be always there to catch me when i start to fall, to stop me when i approach danger, to hold me when i’m alone. He’s always there by my side, never leaving, always watching, forever protecting…

…he doesn’t care for anyone lese but me. He just says hello to the others. But with me…with me he was always gentle, caring and sweet. He would always serve me even when i didn’t want him to. He was with me in the dark and he shielded me from bright lights. He calmed my tormented mind when it becomes unbearable…

…he’s my dark angel, my protector, my friend, my lover, MY BROTHER…

-sam

what do i know about myself? I guess I could say I’m psychotic..not exagerating of course. I’m also a bit paranoid. I have small amounts of psychic powers and I’m a mini psychologist at school and home. I’m also a reincarnate of an avatar. I’m the daughter of my dad Lucifer and my Father, the powerful God of everything. (Yeah! that’s why I have a multiple personality disorder.) I’m a mother of seven now…

  You probably don’t know what I’m talking about.

  It’s ok… not many people understand the way I am. I’m just different. Ever since I learned ow to write, read and draw people would say i was good. When i learned how to answer in my own words I was better and when my grades go up I became one of the greats. But when I started to reflect and actually think, people say that i was too advanced. Then my batchmates called me weird, hard to understand or scary.

  I know. They need not tell me. But I never really cared what people think about me. I never had superiority-complex..what i do have is tuberculosis..hehe..

   Just wanted all of those who are, like me, misunderstood. Please feel free to e-mail me anytime…nothing is ever as it seems